Miguel - Simplethings

great song. don't just sit there. listen to it.

What is wrong with you?

Babe and I took a voyage over the mountain to his hometown. I swear, the closer we got to that town, the more I could feel my brain turning to mush. I don't know what it is about that town, but everyone in it, with the exception of a handful of people, is poorly educated, overweight, welfare collecting trash. I'm not being "mean". What I'm telling you is accurate. There is something seriously wrong with those people. The kicker in all this is, they all think they're a gift to humanity. (Sorry. No.) All the young people drive ricers OR obnoxious jacked up trucks that make a fuckton of noise. Somehow this makes them believe they matter. The delusion is staggering. I do not miss that place. Not at all. I think I may need to schedule an MRI. There's no way that after 4 years of living there, I don't have soft tissue damage.

Damnaged

                                                    

 "Every time I try

                                   To bury the wreckage of that old house in my mind.
                                           I see the same crow on the power line.
                                           He could have flown to any other home,
                                           But he'll never stop chasing mine.
                                             He’ll never stop chasing mine."

-"Damnaged"
by The Color Morale

(great fucking song)

you totally knew

be ridiculous

.longing.

This picture pretty much sums up how I've felt the last 4 years before moving recently. I had enough to sustain me, but I knew there was a bigger, more fulfilling life for me and I could see it. I just couldn't get out of my bowl.

Second chances

A few days ago I had stained a table that the previous owners left here. It was a nice table. Just needed some work. I remember looking at it and thinking "This would make a perfect work table for me." So thanks, previous owners. Babe and I took the legs off today and brought it up to my office and reassembled it. I assembled my new office chair. Unpacked some of my things. Set up my room. A space just for me. It's nowhere near finished yet but I fucking love it already. It's mine. I'm just so damned happy right now. With everything. And grateful. I'm flourishing. I've clawed my way up from a cesspool of having absolutely nothing and no one and now I'm back on top. I'm not a religious person but I will give credit where it's due. There's no way I'd have been able to get this far without God. God led Babe and I together. Without either of them I don't know what would have happened to me. I'm just glad that I didn't take an alternate path.

.kindness.

Round 2

Long story short.
Once I had a blog. Then shit happened and I let it go.

I don't know what else to tell you. I hope I do better with this one.