People Skills

  It has come to my attention that I need to work on my people skills. (ME????? Surely you jest.) I'm not going to say who told me this. That's irrelevant. The important thing here is that I have been this way for as long as I can remember. "This way" meaning standoffish, defensive, nice but not too nice, and very unlikely to put up with any trivial nonsense or bullshit of any kind. I just can't. I think I'm fine with people. My job requires me to be nice. It's helped me deal with people better, actually. I like to think of it as therapy of sorts. So in general, I think I'm VERY good with people. In a general sense. NOW, that isn't saying I couldn't improve. I'm not great at it. It has a lot to do with my upbringing. My grandparents pretty much raised me and I was essentially an only child. My father was right there, as everyone pretty much lived on the same farm, but lets face it, after your dad marries a whore of a hosebeast, any kind of fatherly influence goes out the window. You've seen the movies. You know. I just don't deal with people well. I prefer they stay away. I'm not a loner. I like some people. It's just that a lot of people are really really REALLY fucking stupid. If they're not stupid, they're fucking twisted. Or shallow. Or any undesirable trait you can think of. Not everyone. Just the majority. That's why I said I like SOME people. As for me changing how I deal with life and the people in it? I don't have any idea how I would begin to do that. I've been this way too long and I just don't like people. I'm nice to a point. I'll destroy you before you destroy me though. I'm working on my anger and I've gotten better. Plus I have a boyfriend of 5 years, for Christ's sake, how bad can I be?