a time to change

Oh wow. A whole month.

Time has a funny way of getting away from you, doesn't it?

Long story short: work got busy, we had tons of overtime, and I'm exhausted. I took an approved personal day today and guaranteed myself a four day weekend. I needed it.

I've simply been floating around lately. Going with the flow of things. I've been working on being more mindful. Thinking about what I say before I say it, and thinking about what I say in general. I've been paying more attention to what's going on around me and how I present myself to other people. (Not because I care in THAT way what other people think of me. If you don't like me, then you don't. That's up to you.) I am being more mindful how I carry myself, how I speak, how I treat people. I'm focusing more on not only being a better woman, but also a better human in general. I'm learning to pick my battles. I still have a long way to go. J and I are hoping to have children as soon as possible so what better time than now to make sure they have a positive influence? We won't let them grow up wondering if they're good enough like we did. We won't let them have the broken childhood that we did. We want them to be decent people and that starts with who we are. We're trying our best. Neither of us are perfect and we are QUITE aware of that.